If only I can count the seconds without falling asleep while standing at the side of the ship, I could have. I’m just distance away from my hometown – all the longings and homesickness came rushing to the very ends of my nerves. At last I’m home.

But as I stood there watching the structures that are now clearer in sight, I pass by a ray of colorful light curving from one end to the other. I haven’t seen a rainbow for quite a while and so I was like a child looking at its entirety. I’ve always treated the rainbow as the bright side of life – joy, victory, passing grades, good health and loving family. So as you can see, everything turned even brighter as I watched this rainbow. For a couple of minutes my direction was concentrated to where the mighty rainbow curves above the blue ocean. I forgot that the city which bears all the memories I have is physically right in front of me because the rainbow caught all the essence of those treasured times. I got lost for a while that when I tried to focus my sight to the rainbow alone – I was surprise by what I saw.

The rainbow lost its other half. I didn’t know if there is a science behind it or is it just because it’s my first time seeing a half rainbow. But even so,one thing is for sure right at that very moment – it didn’t look good at all. It has lost all its might and beauty all of a sudden. I tried to search for the other half afraid that my treasured moments would go with it. Unfortunately, it was nowhere of sight. What to do? I can’t possibly stare at a half rainbow, it just seems so different and… sad. It would’ve been better if it would just disappear as if it wasn’t there all the time than seeing it broken in half. But then as I look back at the sky, I saw the heavy dark gray clouds surrounding the half of it. I saw a ray of hope believing that it was merely blocked by this clouds. However, as the dark clouds moved away from it – it revealed nothing. It was purely  blank and all I saw was the sky and the other half of the rainbow.

All of a sudden I thought of the happy moments I attached with that rainbow. How in a single moment, its Giver will take away everything and I’ll be left with the broken half and unable to stand alone. Moreover, I thought of how the dark clouds blocked my view towards that rainbow. Should I always blame the problems and failures just to give reason on how the other half of me was lost? Or should I just accept that the things I’ve lost are the results of the decisions that I’ve made? That it’s not the dark clouds which conceal it but we only wished it to be because we can’t open ourselves to the fact that everything fades and it’s how it should be – with or without the bad vibes in life.

Realizing those things, I went back to the cabin.