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In the Silence

It’s funny how your feelings share with your enthusiasm. It’s like the absence of the rhythm of the poem when you wrote it completely out of nothing. I guess there’s really a need to coordinate everything in you to do something great in your life. That it’s just not the brain who passes the exam and it’s not the heart’s responsibility to know what’s good and bad – it’s everything in you that must start the work. For you are not you without the things that you are made up. You are not you without the things that make you, you. Hence, there’s a need to respect everything you have to move and function that constitutes you no matter of how least the one acts from the other. Little things, my friend, these are the most unexpected ones that can either make you or break you.

How many persons told you about taking care of yourself? And how many actually answered YES but doesn’t really know what aspect of yourself you should be taking care of? Health, spiritual, financial… there’s so many things to take care for yourself. But these are not YOU, these can keep you happy and rich but not the ones that would help you reach the happy life you dream. You need to understand the difference between you and for you. Try to keep the inner peace inside and build a model out of your own perceptions. Know yourself before knowing somebody else.

Maybe someday you can write a better poem that the lifeless trash you once wrote.


Flashback :)

11:45 pm

“Now, how was my day?”

I entered the chapel during my second hour in school because I haven’t had the time to go first thing since I arrived with a minute to spare before my first subject. I only got two mistakes in my assignment wherein half of one half of our class got a hundred. I perfected my assignment in my major with the help of my friends, of course. Today’s our deadline for the articles and I was lucky to have passed one…out of three.

So how was my day really? I’ve had so much to be thankful and to rejoice to. I know I can’t do such an achievement every day! It should be a must for me to be happy as to how my day went through. I learned, got good scores, and slightly beat the deadline. But why can’t I laugh? Is something not fit or lacking that I could have done a while ago…maybe I was a second too late to realize what I must do? All I know is that I can’t consider this day done without realizing how worth it today is. Maybe it’s not about failing to do something but having done the same things that I should have avoided.

As I tried hard to keep silent while processing my brain, a lot of revelation splashed like big waves in my memory. I remember laughing too loud early in the morning with my friends. Broke my own promise not to talk during class hours. Feeling insecure and anxious especially when my crush is so near I can blow him a love potion in his newly trimmed hair. Yes, I do these embarrassing things and I feel inferior and ashamed every time I realize I have crossed the boundary. What makes it worst is that these are usual things I do every day. These are the things I keep on cursing away before I go to sleep and unknowingly do them as I start my day. How ironic is it to walk far away only to realize there’s a tunnel that led to the same room. I am trapped and my mind is so desperate that I can’t think of any possible solutions to successfully become a new person.

In order to avoid getting lost twice, never go to the same route again. However, I am really dumb in reading signs because I often neglect the word “No Entry, Stupid” in the corner. It seems like I am used at the place that avoiding it makes my day incomplete! I don’t really care if I can’t bring back the twenty four hours to renew what I have done because every thing has its purpose. So how was my day? Well, it’s like yesterday and the next day.