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Succeeding and Failing

Life’s a cycle. The start of pursuing something is always the best part but it just happens momentarily and so long ago that we tend to forget the excitement of creating something new and we claim that the end is where we measure the success of our pursuit.

Will there still be success if the end doesn’t go as how we expected it to be?

Yes. Simply because in the process of achieving something, we’ve done extraordinary things. By extraordinary, I meant doing the things that you don’t usually do and most of all, you do it because of a goal that you wish to have at the end. Doing with a purpose is what drives people to believe that there is success for without it, we would be stagnant and useless. Every decision, every move and every failure we’ve been through are all part of the journey and therefore, we’ve already achieved something even if what we really want isn’t what’s waiting for us ahead. Success isn’t something positive, it’s not something that the doer can judge for himself; sometimes we have to let others play in our lives by showing us the heroes in us. Some people experienced the dark side of life before receiving the better side of it and some have the reverse of it but it doesn’t mean that the former is luckier than the latter. We are all lucky and the things that others are experiencing right now, we will experience it later on. They too shall be in our shoes someday. But it doesn’t give us the permission to judge whether they’ve done better or worst; or have they succeed or failed just because they haven’t done what we did when we were in the situation.

And there shall always be success because life, my friend, is mysterious. It has no beginning and will have no end. That’s why there’ll never be an accurate basis on how successful one is. Your mortal goals are just a part of one big picture and you may never know what’s been prepared for you. So live your life and do something with a purpose. And if ever you end up with or without that goal, start pursuing for something new. Don’t ponder too deep and just live.

You already are successful even before you think about failures.  

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In the Silence

It’s funny how your feelings share with your enthusiasm. It’s like the absence of the rhythm of the poem when you wrote it completely out of nothing. I guess there’s really a need to coordinate everything in you to do something great in your life. That it’s just not the brain who passes the exam and it’s not the heart’s responsibility to know what’s good and bad – it’s everything in you that must start the work. For you are not you without the things that you are made up. You are not you without the things that make you, you. Hence, there’s a need to respect everything you have to move and function that constitutes you no matter of how least the one acts from the other. Little things, my friend, these are the most unexpected ones that can either make you or break you.

How many persons told you about taking care of yourself? And how many actually answered YES but doesn’t really know what aspect of yourself you should be taking care of? Health, spiritual, financial… there’s so many things to take care for yourself. But these are not YOU, these can keep you happy and rich but not the ones that would help you reach the happy life you dream. You need to understand the difference between you and for you. Try to keep the inner peace inside and build a model out of your own perceptions. Know yourself before knowing somebody else.

Maybe someday you can write a better poem that the lifeless trash you once wrote.

To Whom It May Concern

To Whom It May Concern

Sometimes we say that other people’s dramas are very silly until we experience them ourselves. Indeed, experience will teach you the best lessons in life and it is true that its effect on you is immeasurable – it can change a character. You wouldn’t pay a penny for it to educate you on things that you need to learn most. It comes for free if you take it financially but it’s the attitude and emotion that you’ll be putting at risk. So here’s a hint: I’m going to share my life’s drama and you will be reading a series of heartaches and queries that you might think would be silly for today. But remember that just like what you’re thinking at this moment, I thought the same thing before.

“When will I learn…”

I kept on asking myself that question that my brain is abusing me too much cause even when I’m busy talking or when I’m dodging cars in crossing the street – it’s always ringing in my head. But the thing is that I don’t know what I mean every time I ask myself such question. It can mean a lot of things and what immediately goes inside my head are the problems that keep on bothering me at night… health, college, boyfriend and friends. But to be specific, I can actually change these broad problems into: bad diet, difficult exams, pride and envy, respectively. That’s my life and as for now its how it’s going to be for the next few months I think. I keep on making problems and worry about them the entire day but I guess that without this habit my life would be boring. Maybe it’s how God says to me that he still cares because every time I think about problems I get to hope that He will be there telling me that it’s all part of His plans. Then all of a sudden, everything feels fine to me.

I can bear the fears and aches… for a while. I can forget about the exact things that piss me off for an hour or so. I got to have a time to be free and happy or pretend that I’m not at the end of my confidence level to move on with life. My dad taught me how to get the best out of everything and every day I am trying and every time I try, I realize that I can’t be that person who makes the best out of what she’s given. I hate it but there’s something missing in my life. A hole that needs to be mended and it’s been there for a while that I got used on the pain it inflicts on me. I got numb and I lost track.

My mother was brave when she labored me at her teenage years. I was always amazed at how strong she were when she brought me out to this world that I believed that she also delivered a healthy and strong daughter with her. Well, I guess the strength she was supposed to give me remained in her womb and may have been passed to my other siblings (lucky for them). I am weak and I envy those who can face their problems. I can be the best sometimes but when it’s time for my sail to encounter the storm – I don’t know how to fight. It’s always one of my wishes that someday I can be like the other people I knew who remained firm even though they are on the edge. If I were on a cliff, I would’ve jump out of fear by then.

But maybe I wasn’t so weak after all. I get to learn important values from my own observations and experiences. One thing is that life is naturally unfair and it’s when it’s being unfair to you that it’s actually being fair. I may not be strong but I believe that even the strong people can change the nature of life because we’re made to play the role we were born to be. Just like what Shakespeare said that life is but a big stage and we are the actors of our own drama.

The Half Rainbow

If only I can count the seconds without falling asleep while standing at the side of the ship, I could have. I’m just distance away from my hometown – all the longings and homesickness came rushing to the very ends of my nerves. At last I’m home.

But as I stood there watching the structures that are now clearer in sight, I pass by a ray of colorful light curving from one end to the other. I haven’t seen a rainbow for quite a while and so I was like a child looking at its entirety. I’ve always treated the rainbow as the bright side of life – joy, victory, passing grades, good health and loving family. So as you can see, everything turned even brighter as I watched this rainbow. For a couple of minutes my direction was concentrated to where the mighty rainbow curves above the blue ocean. I forgot that the city which bears all the memories I have is physically right in front of me because the rainbow caught all the essence of those treasured times. I got lost for a while that when I tried to focus my sight to the rainbow alone – I was surprise by what I saw.

The rainbow lost its other half. I didn’t know if there is a science behind it or is it just because it’s my first time seeing a half rainbow. But even so,one thing is for sure right at that very moment – it didn’t look good at all. It has lost all its might and beauty all of a sudden. I tried to search for the other half afraid that my treasured moments would go with it. Unfortunately, it was nowhere of sight. What to do? I can’t possibly stare at a half rainbow, it just seems so different and… sad. It would’ve been better if it would just disappear as if it wasn’t there all the time than seeing it broken in half. But then as I look back at the sky, I saw the heavy dark gray clouds surrounding the half of it. I saw a ray of hope believing that it was merely blocked by this clouds. However, as the dark clouds moved away from it – it revealed nothing. It was purely  blank and all I saw was the sky and the other half of the rainbow.

All of a sudden I thought of the happy moments I attached with that rainbow. How in a single moment, its Giver will take away everything and I’ll be left with the broken half and unable to stand alone. Moreover, I thought of how the dark clouds blocked my view towards that rainbow. Should I always blame the problems and failures just to give reason on how the other half of me was lost? Or should I just accept that the things I’ve lost are the results of the decisions that I’ve made? That it’s not the dark clouds which conceal it but we only wished it to be because we can’t open ourselves to the fact that everything fades and it’s how it should be – with or without the bad vibes in life.

Realizing those things, I went back to the cabin.

MINE

Now I wasn’t supposed to love you, was I?

“I can’t love you cause I am madly in love with someone and maybe… well just maybe, I needed some company and you comforted me in those times.”

Don’t mind it, it’s my brain… not me. Well, my brain is a part of me so logically speaking – yeah, I said them. But honestly, I didn’t want to. My brain is working tricks on me again and it makes me think about things better left forgotten. I am sorry. It’s Christmas and I don’t want to ruin the season but holidays or no holidays, I don’t want to ruin what we have right now. I am very much guilty for still rewinding the past when it shouldn’t have to be part of the present especially between us. Again, my brain is the one responsible and I own my brain which makes me the more responsible here. But so as my heart, and my heart is the most important part of me, and my heart says something else.

I can’t hear a beat but I feel it yearning for your presence. Especially now that you are so so far away, baby. It makes me even feel that you are so close to me than you ever had. I just miss your laughs and your silly gestures when you laugh. 😀 I’ve never been this close and happy with someone. Tell you what, when we’re together, the sense of contentment always whispers in my ear and pierce me straightly to my heart. It really feels good, you know. I hope you feel the same, even if I have my lapses especially those you noticed and most especially to the ones I haven’t showed you yet. How I wish you could feel my mistakes towards you, no not mistakes but betrayals… the secret ones so that I don’t have to gain courage to tell you personally. But I want you to know that I love you and I…

 

“I still love him. That boy who gave me nothing but pain. Especially now, he’s got a new girl… I can’t look them in the eyes when they’re together…”

 

My brain. Again… I swear, it got nothing to do with us. Maybe I got used to telling myself how useless and worthless I am that someone had dared to reject me. That’s just how it is, and it has nothing to do with what we are now. This is different. I know it’s confusing and I don’t want you to fully understand what I’m going through but I am hoping you’ll bare with my moodiness. Cause I love you. When I see how love works to others, it makes me think how lucky I am to have you. You’re honest and very gentleman and I don’t deserve the love you’re giving me. But I love you.

I know what we’ve been through is so tough. And what matters most is the present, I love you but I cannot unfall for him but I love you. And I can love you more every single day and it would be just how it is. You’re special and I can’t not think of you and everything you do cause you’re different and you’re mine. 

The BIG “What If’s?”

There are some matters in this world which started from a simple speculation of how things work. For example, the existence of kindness and evil came from how men classified the actions of man based on the impacts that each represents. Giving alms to the poor shows good results so we say it is kindness and the latter is termed so because slapping someone on the face seems too violent in our perceptions. But how can we really say that the former is better than the latter? Was there any concrete form of law from the ancient times stating the verifiability of these speculations? None, as far as we’re told. But these things are accepted because human reasons involve processes and principles that give us not the exact but the “ultimate” and possible way of explaining things.

Therefore, every human is capable of thinking in any way about how the world and life go. So, try to reflect on these two possible “what if’s” I’ve created randomly. Well, to give you cues, I thought of the first one during Mass and the second when I woke up from sleep, amazing right? 😀

 

1.) Death. First of all, what is death? In my own understanding, death can imply both physically and spiritually. You can be dead spiritually but not physically or the other way around. Some are afraid to face death because we perceived it to be painful or dark. Some are not ready because they are afraid of what’s in it. Of course, nobody came back from the dead in order to give us clues on how we should venture into the new world we are entering. Death is something that happens to the ones who have a weak body and are suffering from illness. Some also says that death comes to those who have done nothing good here on earth while others ask why the good ones die first.

WHAT IF death is something more than rests and uselessness? During the homily of the priest during the second Sunday of Advent, he mentioned about becoming ready for the coming of God and that we should repent in order to be prepared on the death that is to come. Then suddenly, out from nowhere, I came to think that death is not about pain and fear. It’s about getting ready and prepared for the kingdom of God. Death is having a speck of idea or a glimpse of how heaven is.

For example, a man on the verge of crossing the streets randomly think of something so wonderful about an abstract idea that he cannot name and suddenly he thinks of getting to that place. Then a car hit him because the driver was drunk. It wasn’t an accident, wasn’t it? He was prepared and he knew something that any busy people could’ve thought instead of meeting deadlines and stuffs. Nobody can ask him what he thought in the last minute of his life, can there? He was far lucky than how we imagined he would be because of the tragic death that ended his life. Even criminals and other bad guys we knew can have the authority to think about heaven because they are humans and heaven is not limited to those who do good.

Heaven. We don’t know what it really is. Words can play a hundred of images inside our heads. And if someone could’ve seen or had the exact idea of what it is, they’re probably not here by now. Who knows, right? They are more prepared than how we imagined they’d be.

 

2) How can you say that you’ve found the person you should be with? I personally do not believe in soul mates and meant-to-Be’s that’s why I gave a speculation that no couple in this world are the exact pairs. Well, I really don’t know cause I also sound bitter actually. 😀

WHAT IF soul mates are two persons who have the same souls… exactly the same souls. Their lives are so connected that their life span are also the same as their pair? So, if one dies, so as the other half. I’m not talking about having the same birth dates or something, just their endings. You can never really tell because there are billions of people out there and it will surely be long enough to find that person who will share his/her life with you that’s why you go for the person who answered your prayers and so many questions on how you interpreted love. It’s amazing to think that when someone dies then another one (far from each other) also dies because they are related to each other… they’re soul mates who haven’t found each other.

 

Anyways, you can agree or not with these two ideas. I repeat that they are only speculations and I don’t intend to persuade you or something but just share the things that I thought could be possible in any way. 🙂

Life Is

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Life is a cycle of repeated events. That’s why it’s commonly called: the circle of life. We get to experience this life in a short time, true. But in a very little moment, we experience numerous events which teach us different lessons. Life is complex and it surely is amazing.

Memories make life worth living. We live in order to grab opportunities which will later on be in a form of achievements, disappointments, or even random adventure we’ve encountered in the past. God gave us the ability to remember in order to realize how wonderful His gift is every time we recall the things we did yesterday. Though it’s true to say that yesterday is already a history but it wouldn’t be so without today. And in turn, today wouldn’t soon be a history without tomorrow. Yesterday, today, and tomorrow are three relevant things. Their importance is all equal to each other and we have to cherish these different times of our lives.

We don’t always have the spare to time to do all the things in just one instance. If you have to say sorry to someone or thank the person you wish to show gratitude to – do it now. Priorities don’t matter if you really mean every actions and decisions you make. Same goes with loving or hating someone: love and hate are co-existent with each other. You won’t know how to love when you don’t know how it is to hate. But surely, you can love the person you hate and hate the person you once loved. What’s important is you’ve come to love that person in the best way that you can. Showing efforts is much greater than saying promising words wherein some are only empty swears.

See life in a different view every day in order to experience the different sides of it. Life has many dimensions and it’s your choice to discover all of it. The most important thing is, always remember the essence of living because nobody knows how you interpret the beauty of life except you.

How does it feel to walk in a street unknowing the distance you have to take in order to reach the end? Would it be better to enjoy the journey and never mind the last step or expect that something is waiting there but you just don’t know what or who?

They say the journey counts than the success. I say the success counts when the journey is worth it. When you say that how you do things is more important than the product you’ve created means that achievement can be easily disregarded in measuring how successful a person is. There should be balance everywhere, one must be counted regardless of how many points you value it, as long as it counts. We don’t do something out of nothing because naturally we ought to have accomplishments no matter how little task we finish. That’s why it is important to give value to the things that we do while we are aiming for something great. That’s life! Life demands appreciation and we can manifest it through hard work and perseverance. When we get to enjoy the little things while we are in the process of achieving something, we forget the pressure building ahead of us as we take one more step towards the heights. This mindset can help us move on easily if ever we fail in our endeavor. It shows us a different path wherein we can still use the things we learned in our journey and dream of something new.

However, if we choose to expect the things which could be waiting for us, we are in a complete reverse of thought in the previous paragraph. We give priority first to the future than the current state we have. This gives us better chances to adjust what we ought to do with our present in order to stay in the right path. Especially when we stick to the positive expectations rather than the opposite. With this drive and determination, we might feel the pressure but we can be able to fight through it. The thought of failing cannot get in because we are busy with building the right foundation every single day.

So, between the two choices? Which mindset or technique do you feel comfortable? There is a horizon waiting for us, the question is… will you let it remain as straight line in your curious sight or start walking and discover the treasure that awaits?

 

A/N : Everything is based on my observation and it is my free opinion about life. So if there are any thing you disagree there, feel free to comment and let’s discuss it together. God bless 🙂

LIFE in its IRONY

You can be happy
          – but not always
There are times when you’re so sad
          – it seems to last forever
Remembering the times when you fake a smile?
          – you lied just to make everything fine
You tend to say “thank you”
          – when you meant to ask for more
Yet we say sorry
          – still deep inside you want to curse
To know you cried for the unexpected reasons
          – yet, you feel the pain fades
You do things out of of nothing
          – and these things made you who you are to others today
Sometimes, you overlooked something you thought in a snap
          – then you wake up having that exact thing, instead
How incredibly you take things for granted
          – when they are the obvious blessings you’ve always wanted
And it’s funny when you wished for something
          – when you’ve already got hold of it once
But you let it go…

 

A/N : This is from my facebook account and I think it’s a good idea if I can share it to you since I have so many followers who [I think] want to read some of my own articles 🙂 To those who gave comments to some of my blogs, thank you so much. I’m still new and obviously I’m suiting myself to the FREE offers here in WordPress. God bless. Like this post if you like the blog. Thank you 🙂