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Succeeding and Failing

Life’s a cycle. The start of pursuing something is always the best part but it just happens momentarily and so long ago that we tend to forget the excitement of creating something new and we claim that the end is where we measure the success of our pursuit.

Will there still be success if the end doesn’t go as how we expected it to be?

Yes. Simply because in the process of achieving something, we’ve done extraordinary things. By extraordinary, I meant doing the things that you don’t usually do and most of all, you do it because of a goal that you wish to have at the end. Doing with a purpose is what drives people to believe that there is success for without it, we would be stagnant and useless. Every decision, every move and every failure we’ve been through are all part of the journey and therefore, we’ve already achieved something even if what we really want isn’t what’s waiting for us ahead. Success isn’t something positive, it’s not something that the doer can judge for himself; sometimes we have to let others play in our lives by showing us the heroes in us. Some people experienced the dark side of life before receiving the better side of it and some have the reverse of it but it doesn’t mean that the former is luckier than the latter. We are all lucky and the things that others are experiencing right now, we will experience it later on. They too shall be in our shoes someday. But it doesn’t give us the permission to judge whether they’ve done better or worst; or have they succeed or failed just because they haven’t done what we did when we were in the situation.

And there shall always be success because life, my friend, is mysterious. It has no beginning and will have no end. That’s why there’ll never be an accurate basis on how successful one is. Your mortal goals are just a part of one big picture and you may never know what’s been prepared for you. So live your life and do something with a purpose. And if ever you end up with or without that goal, start pursuing for something new. Don’t ponder too deep and just live.

You already are successful even before you think about failures.  


Run Fast yet Slowly

Night, Oh Night

In this sweet and silent moment I lie

Now, I have the moment to think about myself

Won’t care about the world for it already caused me a lot of pain


But Dreams, my Dreams

Should you be willing, I beg you to comfort me in my sleep

That even if for some moments I can fantasy on what is imaginary

Through your lies and creativity, let me escape the bitter reality


Love, my One True Love

Why are you so far away and not even miles within my reach?

Even if it’s so hard I wonder if you’re feeling the distance between us

Yet, the bud of my love will continue to bloom as the golden time runs fast


Juliet, sleep Sweet Juliet

For a moment take a rest and let the world go on with it’s business

Cause no matter how much you worry, practically all those things don’t concern you

You have much more to take care of – listen to your heart that remains true!


Time, listen to me Dearest Time

I am but a servant who is dependent on your movements

Please be fast so I may forget these weary and let my love return in an instant

But keep it slow, for I may not have much rest for tonight to end my sorrow


Now I wasn’t supposed to love you, was I?

“I can’t love you cause I am madly in love with someone and maybe… well just maybe, I needed some company and you comforted me in those times.”

Don’t mind it, it’s my brain… not me. Well, my brain is a part of me so logically speaking – yeah, I said them. But honestly, I didn’t want to. My brain is working tricks on me again and it makes me think about things better left forgotten. I am sorry. It’s Christmas and I don’t want to ruin the season but holidays or no holidays, I don’t want to ruin what we have right now. I am very much guilty for still rewinding the past when it shouldn’t have to be part of the present especially between us. Again, my brain is the one responsible and I own my brain which makes me the more responsible here. But so as my heart, and my heart is the most important part of me, and my heart says something else.

I can’t hear a beat but I feel it yearning for your presence. Especially now that you are so so far away, baby. It makes me even feel that you are so close to me than you ever had. I just miss your laughs and your silly gestures when you laugh. 😀 I’ve never been this close and happy with someone. Tell you what, when we’re together, the sense of contentment always whispers in my ear and pierce me straightly to my heart. It really feels good, you know. I hope you feel the same, even if I have my lapses especially those you noticed and most especially to the ones I haven’t showed you yet. How I wish you could feel my mistakes towards you, no not mistakes but betrayals… the secret ones so that I don’t have to gain courage to tell you personally. But I want you to know that I love you and I…


“I still love him. That boy who gave me nothing but pain. Especially now, he’s got a new girl… I can’t look them in the eyes when they’re together…”


My brain. Again… I swear, it got nothing to do with us. Maybe I got used to telling myself how useless and worthless I am that someone had dared to reject me. That’s just how it is, and it has nothing to do with what we are now. This is different. I know it’s confusing and I don’t want you to fully understand what I’m going through but I am hoping you’ll bare with my moodiness. Cause I love you. When I see how love works to others, it makes me think how lucky I am to have you. You’re honest and very gentleman and I don’t deserve the love you’re giving me. But I love you.

I know what we’ve been through is so tough. And what matters most is the present, I love you but I cannot unfall for him but I love you. And I can love you more every single day and it would be just how it is. You’re special and I can’t not think of you and everything you do cause you’re different and you’re mine. 

The BIG “What If’s?”

There are some matters in this world which started from a simple speculation of how things work. For example, the existence of kindness and evil came from how men classified the actions of man based on the impacts that each represents. Giving alms to the poor shows good results so we say it is kindness and the latter is termed so because slapping someone on the face seems too violent in our perceptions. But how can we really say that the former is better than the latter? Was there any concrete form of law from the ancient times stating the verifiability of these speculations? None, as far as we’re told. But these things are accepted because human reasons involve processes and principles that give us not the exact but the “ultimate” and possible way of explaining things.

Therefore, every human is capable of thinking in any way about how the world and life go. So, try to reflect on these two possible “what if’s” I’ve created randomly. Well, to give you cues, I thought of the first one during Mass and the second when I woke up from sleep, amazing right? 😀


1.) Death. First of all, what is death? In my own understanding, death can imply both physically and spiritually. You can be dead spiritually but not physically or the other way around. Some are afraid to face death because we perceived it to be painful or dark. Some are not ready because they are afraid of what’s in it. Of course, nobody came back from the dead in order to give us clues on how we should venture into the new world we are entering. Death is something that happens to the ones who have a weak body and are suffering from illness. Some also says that death comes to those who have done nothing good here on earth while others ask why the good ones die first.

WHAT IF death is something more than rests and uselessness? During the homily of the priest during the second Sunday of Advent, he mentioned about becoming ready for the coming of God and that we should repent in order to be prepared on the death that is to come. Then suddenly, out from nowhere, I came to think that death is not about pain and fear. It’s about getting ready and prepared for the kingdom of God. Death is having a speck of idea or a glimpse of how heaven is.

For example, a man on the verge of crossing the streets randomly think of something so wonderful about an abstract idea that he cannot name and suddenly he thinks of getting to that place. Then a car hit him because the driver was drunk. It wasn’t an accident, wasn’t it? He was prepared and he knew something that any busy people could’ve thought instead of meeting deadlines and stuffs. Nobody can ask him what he thought in the last minute of his life, can there? He was far lucky than how we imagined he would be because of the tragic death that ended his life. Even criminals and other bad guys we knew can have the authority to think about heaven because they are humans and heaven is not limited to those who do good.

Heaven. We don’t know what it really is. Words can play a hundred of images inside our heads. And if someone could’ve seen or had the exact idea of what it is, they’re probably not here by now. Who knows, right? They are more prepared than how we imagined they’d be.


2) How can you say that you’ve found the person you should be with? I personally do not believe in soul mates and meant-to-Be’s that’s why I gave a speculation that no couple in this world are the exact pairs. Well, I really don’t know cause I also sound bitter actually. 😀

WHAT IF soul mates are two persons who have the same souls… exactly the same souls. Their lives are so connected that their life span are also the same as their pair? So, if one dies, so as the other half. I’m not talking about having the same birth dates or something, just their endings. You can never really tell because there are billions of people out there and it will surely be long enough to find that person who will share his/her life with you that’s why you go for the person who answered your prayers and so many questions on how you interpreted love. It’s amazing to think that when someone dies then another one (far from each other) also dies because they are related to each other… they’re soul mates who haven’t found each other.


Anyways, you can agree or not with these two ideas. I repeat that they are only speculations and I don’t intend to persuade you or something but just share the things that I thought could be possible in any way. 🙂